au revoir, ete.

the other night while driving through the "downtown" area at about 11 pm or so, it became painfully clear to me that summer is over. so many clusters of undergrads trolling the sidewalks, plotting their takeover of my quiet little town.
with the start of their school year comes the start of mine as well - a new crop of kids arrives tomorrow. it's exciting, yes, but always overwhelming and stressful and anxiety inducing. and for some reason i feel even more anxious about this coming year. i can't explain it. maybe i'm just not used to being at a job this long. plus the antsy, caged feeling of being tied down here for one more year. the oscillation between comfort and restlessness, stability and terror.
i am stressing about everything and crying over anything and i don't know if it's the change in seasons or just me being the way i am sometimes.
and when did blogging get so hard? one weekend away and i lapse for a month....