structuredness is next to godliness.

i need to start planning vacations.
i don't do well with unstructured schedules. i think that having time off to relax and kick back will be a good thing, then i muck it all up and get too wild and then get too depressed and oy yoy yoy the downward spiral. really.
this will all get better when i get back to work on monday. i really need that cornerstone of stability in my life. part of me hates admitting that being scheduled helps with the crazies, but gosh darn it, it is somewhat true. waking up at the same time every day can be boring and a hassle, but it does something to the ol' brain that is necessary. but is has been lovely not hearing the alarm clock for the past seven days. i despise that thing.
so it's friday and i'm looking on things with more rationalization than regret. this is the time when i usually have a little time of mourning for a wasted week off. isn't that silly?
i must go enjoy the sun and do some reading and then get back to work on goofy paintings to display on a fence tomorrow.