break!

one minute i'm pining away for the pre-planned life that working provides me, the next i'm coming home every night exhausted and getting depressed because i have no energy or motivation to do anything. is this what that "grass is always greener" phrase is referring to?
since i haven't been able to compose a blog entry at home the past few nights, i've decided to use these few minutes i have during my break at work to get a few things down. my energy and optimism are still somewhere in the positive range at this point in the day. ten minutes to noon. christ, i'd probably still be asleep if it were last week.
it's just an adjustment period, honestly. it's going back to work, but it's also like going to a whole new job. there are some new kids and the routines are a little different and s has allergies and c can't have anything with eggs and b & m are both biters, so keep at eye out for them. there's so much to remember and so many things to keep track of.... it's been a draining past few days.
heh. right now i can here some older kids outside that i have had in classes before and they are very funny. they are so big. my, how they grow.
another issue causing intense stress...shorts. yes, shorts cause me stress. for so many years i have been anti-shorts (for myself, at least. don't take offence if you are an avid shorts-wearer). i still much prefer a skirt in the spring and summer to a pair of shorts. but i decided that this is the year i will embrace shorts. they are more practical in many instances. never will i have to worry about forgetting to tuck up a pair of shorts when i squat down to kid level. sitting criss-cross (we don't use the term "indian style" anymore...duh.) becomes a viable option. riding my bicycle is less risque. but, jesus, where do you find these things? i mean, seriously. i'm not a frumpy middle-aged woman and i'm not a teenager looking to flaunt some booty, so therefore i am not allowed to wear shorts? that must be the case because it seems they simply don't make them in an in-between style.
just when i'm getting on a roll with my clothing industry rampage, it is time to get lunch ready for the children.